Thursday, March 31, 2005

Down with flu

It’s 1150 am in the late morning now. I am at home. Yup, supposed to be at NUH serving out my last 2nd day of attachment today, but I was feeling so ‘under the weather’ last night after I returned from work. Woke up with some muscle aches in my body truck as well. I was so pissed off with some radiographers at work yesterday that I actually cried! Whoosh….can’t believe it man! Damn. In all my 40weeks of attachment, I’ve NEVER behaved like this before and what’s more, at NUH which is one of my fave hospitals to go for attachment. But these 2 staff were new and what I say… They just went overboard. And maybe it’s due to my flu too. And maybe a bit of PMS. RAAAAAAA…

Called up my lecturer who demanded us to call her when we are on MC. I was actually on MC on Monday earlier already. Yeah, I did not mention that I got a bad sore throat and flu after the biathlon. On the day of the biath itself, I woke up to find my throat betraying me. and after the event, I was suffering from sore throat. Down with flu on Sunday, and decided to take MC on Monday whereby I went to the polyclinic. My sore throat was already almost gone but the flu persisted. The polyclinic don’t give antibiotics, but it was good in a way too as I did not want to rely on antibiotics which I always did in the past. It’s always better for my body to heal naturally. Albeit with a bitsa help from the flu tablets.

My decision to not go for attachment was actually made this morning. I was sooo tired last night. Right afer dinner last night, I was already feeling sleepy on the sofa at 8+ pm! I fell in and out of slumber several times between 8-1030pm as I was struggling to watch TV and read the newspaper. Don’t even remember how many times. Groggy from the medicine and the day’s work. Exposing myself to so many other sick patients in an air-conditioned environment where germs and bacteria thrive certainly ain’t going to help me recover faster!!! What’s more, not being appreciated for providing free labour! NAH! I’m not going there to aggravate my illness!

And I’m so not going to the doctor to get another MC. Wanted to do that in the morning cuz my flu tabs are finished! But thought I could drink more water, take more vitamin c and rest well which would all aid in recovering my body fast! Though the lecturer is going to nag me for not taking an MC for today, I don’t care. Feeling so defiant nowadays. Very sick of NYP now. The stupid system and the bloody bureaucracy in the School of Health Sciences, Department of Diagnostic Radiography SUCKS! Let her just mark me for 1 day’s absence in my entire 16weeks of attachment in Year 3. There’s 15% to spare anyway.

I know my body best. It’s on the road to recovery now and all I need is just ample rest in a serene place(like my home!) and not go to the bug-infested place to exacerbate my condition!

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Cleared out some old stuff earlier before typing this. Felt great! Can’t wait to clear out more of those useless worksheets and send them to the garang-guni man after graduation.

Am going to finish collating my project slides and the FYP report later in the afternoon. Perhaps read a book, catch up on my diary, and go for a walk later in the afternoon. Nature would be therapeutic.

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The photos for the Navy Biathlon are out! They’re taken by a company specializing in sports events photography who will have them up for sale on their website after the event. I received an email from them and there are a total of 8 shots of me! Haha… 2 when I was getting out of the water and 6 while running. Saved them into my folder. :p They’re free this way.

Also checked out the overall timings for the Women’s Open. The results are posted on the Safra website and I get to see everyone’s timings. I was placed in the 36th place out of 132 participants in my category! Very happy to see that! Could have done better for the swim leg though. There are quite a number of others who actually completed the swim earlier than me or around my time but the run slowed them down. The fastest girl finished her race in 1hr 10min 1sec. I looked at the race results for the ‘Men’s Open’ too. Hehe… Quite a morale-booster when u see so many others who took a longer time to finish than you! :p


The weather is cloudy at the moment. Rain seemed imminent. Great day to chill and rest at home. Lunch!

One Moment In Time

One Moment In Time
by Whitney Houston

Each day I live I want to be
A day to give The best of me
I'm only one But not alone
My finest day Is yet unknown

I broke my heart For every gain
To taste the sweet I faced the pain
I rise and fall Yet through it all
This much remains

Chorus:
I want one moment in time
When I'm more than I thought I could be
When all of my dreams are a heartbeat away
And the answers are all up to me
Give me one moment in timeW
hen I'm racing with destiny
Then in that one moment in time
I will feel, I will feel eternity

I've lived to be
The very best I want it all
No time for less I've laid my plans
Now lay the chance Here in my hands

Chorus

You're a winner
For a lifetime If you seize that
One moment in time Make it shine

Chorus

Then in that one moment in time
I will be, I will be free

Sunday, March 27, 2005


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"Amphibians only"

26th Mar 2005

East Coast Park was beautiful.

Woke up at 545am, washed up, had breakfast and then went on did some last minute packing before Dad fetched me to Bedok MRT at 625. Supposed to be 615, oops, late and he was angry at me, cuz he was tired after the night’s ride already and needed to return the taxi before 730. :p Quarrelled with him. What a way to start the day. Felt rather guilty.

Dad dropped me off at Bedok MRT where I took the shuttle bus service provided to go to the event venue. Arrived at Bedok Jetty area at about 710. Upon reaching the venue, I could feel the high energy level that was in the air as the area was filled with athletes and campers who had camped at ECP over the night. There were many road marshals, namely the Navy guys. The venue was well-organised and spacious. Most importantly, there was a proper toilet!! I always hated cubicle toilets in these kinds of sports events cuz they’re disgusting. And u cannot even change properly in them!

I registered and got my race pack, consisting of 2 number bibs, safety pins, champion chip, an elastic band for tagging your bag for deposition & a swim cap. Then went on to mark my body. I was ‘1367’. Proceeded on to my transition box after that to arrange things. Realised I should go to the toilet 1st, so off I went and for the 1st time in so many events, I need not queue to go to the toilet!! Hah! But it was not so for the guys! The queue was long man! Being a girl in this kind of situations can be really good, cuz there will never be as many girls participating in a sporting event as there would be guys.

After the toilet visit, I made my way to one of the benches facing the sea and the sunrise was BEAUTIFUL. Shaded by casuarinas and weeping willows… The view was awwww… I can only say that…. And guess what? I did not bring my camera!

I pinned my number tags to the dri-fit tee I was going to be wearing later, strapped on the champion chip(for recording my timing) onto my left ankle, and just chilled for a while on the bench. Trying to do some mental prep as I looked out at the sea and imagined myself swimming the route later.

Went back to the transition box later and then placed my stuff there. It was big enough for my huge Deuter bag so decided not to deposit my bag. Saved $2! Took my running shoes out, socks together with it. Placed my run gear in proper place, with the rag for drying my feet on top. Not forgetting my frozen bottle of 100PLUS which I had placed in the freezer the night before. Also took along another small bottle of chilled 100PLUS which I was drinking ever since I stepped out of the house. Hydration is very important in long races. Don’t wanna suffer the cramps later during the run!

The girl in the box beside looked quite ‘pro’ with a Salomon bag (which looks brand new), a pair of shades on top of it, and she was wearing a 2-piece swim suit(but she has no abs!). Another girl was chatting with her friend in front of me and 2 of them sounded like it’s their 1st biath. She turned to me and asked if I know the swim route cuz she’s freaking out now, all the while smiling away. I tried to help by saying what I knew from the race booklet they have sent us. Then she asked the ‘pro’ girl beside me and all she said very coolly was “I’ll look at the other swimmers later.� And she kinda shrugged her shoulders. Found her to be quite proud. Shall take note of how she perform later.

The ‘Men’s Open 1’ flagged off at 8am, followed by ‘Men’s Open 2’ at 810. There were too many male participants, hence they gotta divide them into 2 timings. Whereas for the ‘Women’s Open’, it was flagged off together with ‘Men’s Veteran’ and ‘School’s Challenge’ at 820.

Walked over to see the flag off for ‘Men’s Open 1’ and it was such an adrenalin rush as 600+ participants ran towards the water and started swimming. The distance is quite far out, stretching the entire distance out to the Bedok Jetty. Whoa, the tides must be quite big as compared to swimming in the Sentosa lagoon.

After ‘Men’s Open 2’ was flagged off, I was already preparing to go queue up. Put on my swim cap and queued with all the others to stand near the start line. Actually, if u r asking me how I’ve been feeling so far, I must say that I’ve been calm surprisingly. No adrenalin rush for me. No extreme excitement for me. No anxiety. Certainly no ‘what ifs’ that clouded my clear mind. It was unlike any other event I had taken part in, including the Judo competitions in the past. I did not give myself any pressure, I guess. Told myself I’m there to enjoy the race and complete it. I know I could do it.

Looking at other groups, actually did hope that I would have other friends to do this together with me. I had written about this before in previous blogs. But somehow, I have come to accept it as I know the race is a solo one, and it will be me against myself. Not against anyone else as im not competing with anyone.

The horn sounded and off we went. The 1st part would be against the waves as we were still energetic, according to the organizer who briefed us just beforehand. Then we would have to turn to the left and swim beside the tide before turning again to swim back to shore where the tide would be with us then. It’s like a triangle formation if u can imagine it.

A total of 1.5km. Equivalent to 30 laps of the Olympic sized pool. It would take me less than 33 mins in the pool and since we were out in the open sea, I estimated I would take about 38-40 mins?

I was wrong, so wrong. Hmph. There were no lines to guide us and u have to look out for the bobbing yellow buoy as the marker where u would turn around. But many times, due to the open water conditions, it’s impossible to spot the buoy.

After the turn, it was worse as the 2nd part involves swimming BESIDE the tide. ARGH. I think I got swept inwards by a lot, which was the same case for many others as I could hear the marshals in the bumboats shouting ‘Swim to your RIGHT! Keep to your RIGHT!� And I was desperately trying to look for the yellow buoy.

I was very faraway from the buoy! It seemed like I had turned and swam for a long time but I still gotta swim such a long distance to the buoy before I could turn! Oh dear! I started looking at my watch then, something which I have told myself not to do during the race. When I saw that the time had already exceeded what I expected, I was quite sad that my 1st biath would produce such a lousy timing. And expending too much energy was another concern too, as I do not want to be drained even before my run!

Told myself to relax then and just continuing swimming. Tried to keep the buoy in sight and could see many others around me at the same time. I guess I wasn’t the only one in this situation!

Finally reached the buoy after what seemed like ages. Upon turning, I could see the huge banner with the words ‘SWIM EXIT’ on it. Forward on to shore man! I sped up a bit but was wary about getting my right calf cramped as well. In the trainings earlier, I have come to understand that my right calf cramps easily during the run if I kicked it too hard during my swim.

Reached shore. Ran up to the huge basin of water which they had placed for us to clear the sand off our feet and then rinsed myself with the fresh water they had placed at the side. It was really very well-organised. There were so many tubs, no one had to fight for them.

The basin of water really helped a great deal. No sand. Had been worried about getting sand in my socks and I would be crying while I run! Got to my transition box, dried my feet, wore my run attire, and socks. Gulped down some 100PLUS. Decided to get my receiver before I ran.

I did not need my receiver at all as there were so many other runners and the adrenalin and energy that filled the air totally got me. I did not need music to help me concentrate on my run. I could just make do with the atmosphere! And I ran the entire 10km holding the receiver in my hands, rotating between the 2.

I started off faster than I had planned. Any signs of cramp? Nope, but it still pays to be cautious and hence to slow down at the beginner. Tried, but could not. I was going at a faster rate than planned and I could not stop myself. I overtook many GUYS. Yes, guys. From both ‘Men’s Veteran’ and ‘Men’s Open’! Some ‘School Challenge students as well. It felt good. I did not revel in the fact that I overtook those guys, but more of my own mind and body that was surprising me.

Never in my trainings, those that I did both swim and run together, have I ever felt so strong before. It was both scary and incredible at the same time. I took check of how my right calf was feeling all the time and made sure that if there were any signs of it cramping, I would slow down. Nope. No such luck! :)

I was going strong. So strong that I overtook so many people! There were a few who overtook me-2 ladies, 2-3 young fellows, 1 older man. All in all, I remember there shouldn’t be more than 10 who sped past me. I’m so pleased with myself. All my trainings have paid off. I did not even felt any pain in my knees, nor any muscle spasms in my shoulders, nor pain in my hip, nor chest pains, nor stitches! All I felt was a bit of pain in my abdomen. But it was bearable. Not bothersome.

What a remarkable thing the human body is. It’s always capable of doing so much more without u knowing.

Took drinks at 2 stations. Once was very diluted Gatorade and the 2nd time was just plain water. Guessed they ran out of Gatorade. I simply grabbed my drink and ran past the counter, all the while continuing to run while having the drink on the go. Not easy, many guys stopped. And there was this one guy who seemed amazed at me and turned to look for a few seconds. He was one of those who stopped dead on his tracks to drink. Hey Bro, u can do it too if u want!

Only sipped 1-2 mouthful each time before I threw the cup away. Wonder if what those long distance runners really survive on this just one or 2 mouthfuls at every drink station. Don’t think so. They carry their own fluid and gel.

The last 2.5km. I visualized it as 6 rounds around the track. Not really useful but just trying to gauge the distance. It was fast. With the final kilometer, there were markers at every 100metres. The final 300metres enabled me to see the finish line already. It looked shorter than what I imagined on the track. As I don’t run on the track anymore ever since the Judo days, all my impressions came from how I used to gauge the distance during those arduous trainings. Those were the days when I used to hate running. And those physical trainings on the track. *weary laugh* Those were the days man…

Finished the run at the same speed which I was running all the while. At least that’s what I felt. I was totally surprised with my performance for the run and actually could have continued running past the 10km mark. Did not feel extreme fatigue. Great. Could be due to the 100PLUS. :)

I continued jogging on the spot to warm myself down and did some stretches afterwards. So many others would stop immediately and grabbed a drink. Then they stopped dead in their tracks and some even sat down! Oh man, u people are going to suffer the muscle aches the next day!

I overheard quite a number of people(both men and women) complain about the swim. “The swim was terrible!� “So many people cheated leh!� “ Whoa, siong leh…� Hah, im not the only one to feel the same way!

I drank, cooled down, walked around to look for the place to collect my goodie bag which would have my cert and finisher’s medal in it! Still quite long before I could get it. They told me I needa return after 20minutes later. They actually print the timings on the cert for u right away, saving u the hassle of collecting it on another day or them sending it to u. Great! I could know my timings straight away as well.

I went to bath and the toilets don’t have showers in all the cubicles. They’re changing rooms actually, but there’s an open shower outside and there’s a couple of shower heads. I joined other ladies in bathing in our swim suits. Did I say earlier that they played really good music during the event as well? Yup, under the open sky, with the sea next to u and bathing and scrubbing in your swim suits… Oh man, it really brought back memories of my OBS trip back in 2000... It was also the last time I ever bathed like that with my watchmate, XR. (Hey girl, if u r reading this, do u remember that both of us insisted on bathing outside cuz the bathrooms were so crowded after we returned from our sea ex? Really misses those days… There was such a strong sense of nostalgia overcoming me when I reminiscent them…)

After bathing, I went back to collect my goodie bag. The cert was ready by then n I was so thrilled by my timing! I got over my swim leg timing as I suppose it affected many others as well. A friend who was a veteran in these races already, told me he took 1hour! And his friend said I was faster than him! They’re in their 30s btw.

Swim leg: 46:17
Transition time: 1:49
Run leg: 55:15
Total: 1:43:21

I was so happy with my run. Never thought that I could sub 1 hour for a 10-km run! What’s more, it’s after a swim! Happy, happy……

I met 2 friends at the race and saw some people I have seen at other races before. I also saw my OBS instructor from my Sec3 camp. I had wanted to go say ‘hi’ but he was talking to others at both times when I saw him. The day had been perfect, but it would have been more perfect if I had gone up to show him that I have done my 1st biathlon. And he was my inspiration! It would be so significant. My 1st biathlon completed successfully, and I’m there to thank my instructor who was a participant as well.

Sigh.

East Coast Park was so beautiful. It was very windy at 11 as the dark clouds were rolling in and half the sky was dark, while the other half was bright. The whole setting gave a very peaceful and comfortable feeling. I was so at ease with myself. I’ve finally completed my 1st biathlon!

As I was writing my diary last night, I heard the song ‘One Moment In Time’ by Whitney Houston. I love that song. How appropriate.

Remembered I ever told a close friend of mine that I believe each of us has a talent in something. Each of us is born with something to be fulfilled, in a way. We had seen swimmers and sailors accomplish big things at competitions before. We were not meant to play Judo, as it’s not our cup of tea. But I have no doubts it has certainly help to mould me into what I am today. Our talents could be hidden and not discovered so early. Probably mine could be swimming. And hers could jolly well be sailing.

Whatever it is, I have found my love in multi-sports. Well, at least in swimming and running and cycling(thou im not that good on the bike yet!). Used to marvel at the triathletes. I’m getting a bit of taste as to what it is like now!

Used to think that a marathon is not for me as my knees would not be able to take it. After completing the half-marathon and now the biathlon, I’m looking forward to accomplishing more challenges. I had a record of running 5X/week during my training for my biathlon. And my knees felt good. In fact, it’s all these trainings that have made me so much stronger as a person both physically and mentally.

So… marathon may be up for grabs in the near future? And I would certainly love to try out a triathlon… I can’t believe this is all coming true… Hah…

SPECIAL THANKS TO SEVERAL PEOPLE WHO HAVE MADE THIS BIATH POSSIBLE:
Mum: For the washing of my numerous pieces of clothing after every training… For supporting me in this kind of ‘unfeminine’ activity which caused me to become so big-sized… Mmm… Hah! :p

Dad: For fetching me to Bedok early in the morning although he was so tired already. He had fetched YL and me to City Hall last year for the half-marathon too. Thanks, Daddy!

KN(my OBS instructor) : The 1st triathlete whom I’ve ever known and who has always been an inspiration in many ways. I finally took the 1st step! Thank you!

SM: For the sms just before the race! Hah! Just when I was feeling lonely! :p Thank u!

LL: For the call right after the race! I could let my feelings out to someone who knows the inside-outs! Heh! :) Thanks for being such a great listener and for knowing how important this race is to me!

YL: For the sms the night before! Thanks for the constant encouragement!

LM: Hah… Even thou u’re faraway in Belgium, thanks for remembering I had the biath! It was a hell of a good fun!

MH: For the late sms… Heh… Appreciate it! Thanks for being such a great pal and staying in ECP so that I could go run that day! Also for such a good listening ear all the time!

XL: For the constant encouragements and for understanding when I don’t return calls cuz I’m training! :p

ZX: For the constant encouragements and for knowing who I am. Thanks for the listening ear whenever I wanna gush over someone or something! :p

S(my RG classmate) : For constantly coming back to this blog and thanks for the wishes. Seems like u’re the only one in class who reads this often enough to know me better. :) Thanks u!

All others whom I might have left out or who have prayed/hoped/wished for me secretly! Haha… Thank u! I am who I am because of u guys too!

In no way is the list above placed in degree of importance! If I could, I would place everyone in the top place! Serious! :)

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When I told a friend last month that im doing my 1st biathlon over the sms, his reply was: “great! finally u doing bia. U will ENJOY it!� He was DAMN RIGHT! I love it so much that I can’t wait to do it all over again!


"You can have anything you want, if you want it badly enough. You can be anything you want to be, do anything you set out to accomplish, if you hold to that desire with singleness of purpose."
-Abraham Lincoln


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My finisher's medal, cert and number tag!!! Posted by Hello

Monday, March 21, 2005

5 more days!

It’s the 1st day of attachment at SGH Obstetrics and Gynaecology Centre. Never knew that the sight of seeing a pregnant lady with a baby inside her womb would excite me so much. The wonders of Life. Back in the JC days when I studied the reproductive system in detail, I have always thought how amazing it is that a sperm and an egg can give form to what I am today. And many others out there as well. It’s pretty awesome to see the hands and legs of the baby move inside the womb... Quite an experience... U gotta see it for yourself to understand what I mean...

Although it’s only the 1st day at the department, I have heard of some horrid stories of what woman have to undergo... :p I mean what can happen to woman... I shall not elaborate here as it might gross some of u out. Or maybe I might just write it at the end of the week when I have seen and heard everything that I should and when I have more time as well... I was totally grossed out when I heard about the uterus dropping out of the body.........

The staff are friendly and cheerful...It made my day much more bearable as im the only one being posted to this department this week! Well, the cases are interesting to keep me awake… Tomorrow is Obstetrics Day where I will see more babies and mums-to-be... Btw, there were 2 girls(I call them girls cuz they’re only aged 17 and 19) who came by today and the 17-year-old was 7 months’ pregnant already!!! The 19-year-old was scanning to check if she would be pregnant... Ermmm...


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5 days away to my biathlon! Went swimming after work and am now wondering if I should work out every single day this week. Gotta catch enough sleep if I were to do that... Am looking forward to it, though im not feeling extremely excited right now! Not yet maybe...

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Have more or less decided on where to go after my graduation which is just 5 weeks away! End of April! That is next month! Have already booked tickets and until my tics are issued, I shall keep mum about my destination... my 1st day of work is more or less confirmed on the 13th June, so I calculated that I would have 7 weeks of hols! Not too bad! I might just go to 2 places! :)

Thursday, March 17, 2005

Which Tarot card is you?

The Temperance Card
You are the Temperance card. Temperance is the
blending of elements to produce stability. We
say that someone is temperate when they are
pleasant and easy going. Temperance achieves
balance through merging, so a temperate person
is one who feels whole. Creative genius is
often found in the ability to unite two
previously unconnected ideas. Aleister Crowley
considers this one of the most important facets
of this card and names the card Art. He refers
to a generation of a third element out of two
previously existing elements. In the same way,
the artist has the ability to create a painting
from canvas and some tubes of coloured paint.
The temperate person is also inclined to think
about philosophy. Temperance leads to a calm
and rational logic but can also look beyond
everyday knowledge for the truth. Image from
The Stone Tarot deck.
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Monday, March 14, 2005

Sungei Buloh

Below are photos from the trip down to Sungei Buloh on 6th March with Yilin. Wanted to go to St John's Island that day, but it rained and the trip got to be postponed! So we went to Sungei Buloh in the afternoon in the end after the rain! Took some shots here and there.... A great way to spend the Sunday Afternoon without spending much! :) I brought my binoculars down, but as it's already March, the birds seem to have flown back home... As compared to Nov last year, there's not many birds to be seen! :p


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A giant mudskipper! Posted by Hello

Saturday, March 12, 2005


Actually 'reproduced' this photo with my digicam which was my very 1st run with the judokas. Loved it. Wish we could have more of this. :) Posted by Hello


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Looking back... & loving it...

Below is an article that I found on the website of this monthly contributor, John Bingham, to Runner’s World, the magazine. I love the articles of this guy who only started running at the age of 43, who managed to overcome his obesity, drinking and smoking habits. It goes to show that with will and tenacity, u can achieve anything u want to.

Remembered reading this book back in my secondary school days. It was Jo, my Judo senior who recommended this book to me which I managed to borrow from the CCK library. I remember many of us girls would have placed ‘basketball’ as our 1st choice of ECA back then on our forms. I did. Judo was my 2nd. Of course, only those selected few were chosen to join the team. And yet, digging deeper into my memories, I had wanted to become a swimmer all along. In the early to mid-90s, Joscelin Yeo was rising as the swimming star of Singapore and she was more or less my idol, furthermore with the influence from my Dad who kept emphasizing about us having the same surname. And I did love swimming. Learnt it in the upper primary years. However, NY did not have swimming as an ECA.

I started swimming regularly every week only at the age of 15. It was more or less to ease off the muscle aches accumulated in the hectic week of Judo training and to relax my back and neck muscles so that they would not lapse into spasm as easily during training. And Dad just gotten membership to CDANS Club then as well. It did not come easy, just like every other sport. I remember starting out with only 4 laps of the pool and I was panting like a dog already. That distance was slowly built upon and it got me to where I am today. The ability to swim 120 laps at one go, which I did last year.

After the Judo days, swimming became a part of my life as a core exercise. Water is simply therapeutic and I can focus my mind on whatever I want to think about in the waters. There were times in 2002(during my 6-month break after ‘A’ levels) when I would see the young swimmers training hard in order to fight for a place in the national team. I know Bukit Batok pool has a group of them training every Thursday afternoons. I always looked upon them in awe and wondered what my life would be like if I were really in the swim team. Would I learn to appreciate swimming as much as I would now? Would I have to drag myself to training like I used to drag myself to Judo training before? Or perhaps I might have turn out to be a good swimmer and get a chance to represent Singapore? Who knows? But those are all in the past…

I’ve learnt to move on and when I look at the young swimmers now training hard to make their mark one day, I no longer look at them in awe. I’ve come to accept my past and moved on to carve my future.

I realized I’m really more comfortable being in a solo sport than in a team sport. Swimming is a solo sport. Running is too. Cycling is as well. Enjoys the peace and solitude I have to myself during these activities. What Bingham have written in the last few paragraphs are what I can identify with. I’ve overcome the fact that I MIGHT have been able to be a swimmer, and become one now myself. I’ve slowly turned to running and am loving it. Cycling is more of a really leisure activity now, as my bike is really lousy. However, I will never deny the fact that I was once a Judoka, and a very proud one, for I was in the best team in the world. My skills were not up to my coach’s standard, and I know I have failed him more than once. However, like what Bingham have said, “I wonder if I might have found out all those years ago what I've only recently discovered, that what really matters most is being in the game.�

I loved the Judo team, and I still do. Those memories are for life. I’ve never regretted joining Judo.


HOOP DREAMS
A had my shot. There was one brief moment where my destiny was in my hands. Watching the ball sail off the tip of my fingers I had no idea what that one shot would mean.


Like most 12 year old boys, I wanted to be an athlete, so I tried out for the Rhodes Elementary School basketball team. Being a 7th grader, being nearly the youngest in my class, and being short didn't deter me. I'd seen the uniforms, I'd been to the games, and I'd heard the cheerleaders calling out the player's names. I wanted to be on the team.

Practices in those days were mostly about running up and down the court, doing lay-up drills, and shooting free-throws. It may help put this in perspective for you to know that I shot free-throws using the two-handed, between-the-legs technique since I wasn't strong enough to actually shoot the ball overhand. After each practice, I'd stay until I had made 20 baskets from the free-throw line. The coach was impressed with my tenacity, if not my talent.

Then came the moment. We were behind by one point, to our cross-city rivals, there we just a few seconds left when the coach called a time out. "Bingham", he yelled. "Get ready to go in." This was a major shock since I had never actually played IN a game at that point. I took off my warm-up jacket, and made my way to the coach's side. The next words out of his mouth stunned everyone.

"Let Bingham take the shot. No one will expect it. No one will be guarding him. Toss him the inbound pass, get out of his way, and get under the basket." Then he turned to me and said: "Just get close enough to shoot a free-throw."

My heart was pounding. My palms were sweating. As I moved out onto the floor it felt as if every eye was on me. The coach was right. Not one opposing player came within 50 feet of me. The inbound pass came to me, I had the ball in my hands, the coach was yelling, the team was yelling, the cheerleaders were yelling. And then it happened.

I moved towards the basket. I even managed to dribble the ball once or twice. But instead of taking the under-hand shot that I had practice, I drew the ball up and shot it overhand. As I pushed to ball off I could feel the room go into a state of suspended animation. The world stopped.

So did the ball. Well, it didn't actually stop. It just sort of fell harmlessly to the ground and into the hands of an all too eager opponent who raced past me and scored an easy basket. We lost the game by three points.

Adolescent boys are not the most forgiving people on earth. Neither was the coach. In fact, even the cheerleaders took turns berating me. I'm not sure what was the most humiliating, the taunts by the opponents or by my teammates, but the result was that I never put on the uniform again. I never put on ANY uniform again. And never played on another school sports team.

It was 32 years later that I tried to become an athlete again. 32 years before I worked up the courage to put on a pair of running shoes and pin a race number to my chest. 32 years before I had the nerve to admit that more than anything in my life I had always wanted to be an athlete.

So often we are defined by moments in our lives over which we have little or no control. Too often, that one instant becomes the turning point. Those moments are, after all, just that. Moments. And yet there are so many of us, who, as adult-onset athletes, must first overcome our pasts before we can dream of a future.

I don't know what happened to anyone that was on that team with me. I don't know what happened to the coach. I don't know if any of them have run 24 marathons, or hundreds of 5 and 10K's. But I have. Every starting line is my chance to erase that memory. Every finish line is a chance to redeem myself. And I savor every victory I have over myself.

There are times when I wonder how my life would have changed if I had made the shot. I wonder what it would have been like to have been a hero, if only that once. I wonder if there are others, like me, who turned to running because then their failures wouldn't affect the entire team.

And I wonder if I might have found out all those years ago what I've only recently discovered, that what really matters most is being in the game.

Waddle on, friends.


Mind is everything; muscles, mere pieces of rubber. All that I am, I am because of my mind.
-Paavo Nurmi

Thursday, March 10, 2005


The postcard that came with it! Posted by Hello


This was the sticker on the envelope! Posted by Hello

2nd simulation

My 2nd time simulating a biathlon today. It was much better than the first time. Swam only 40 laps in the pool(the actual length is only 30 laps of the pool) and got down to running for 1hr 2min. The sun was out hot and fierce. I was so worried for my back although it was only the 9-10am sun. There were simply no cloud cover at all! As im typing this, my back is itching now, sign of an imminent flare-up. Crossing my fingers…

Purposely ran under shady areas… Ran around the industrial park outside my school and then towards AMK and then back and everywhere… Did not exactly know where I was also, but as long as I did not get lost, it was fine. Or rather, as long as there was shade, it was fine.

The run was much more bearable today, perhaps cuz as compared to the 1st time, I was training in the morning when my energy level is at the peak? Or perhaps I swam 10 laps less? Or perhaps my body is getting used to running right after a swim? Or I had a sip of 100PLUS before the run? Or maybe it’s because I had a heavy breakfast?

Whatever it was, I’m so looking forward to my biathlon on the 26th Mar. My fave number! *Hiak* At the same time, it’s something totally new I’m attempting, so will give it my best shot man! Wish me luck, pals!

Surprise, surprise, surprise!

When I stepped out of the train today at 6pm, the air smelt heavy, humid and hazy. Yet, it was a kind of refreshed after the sudden downpour that caught most parts of Singapore by surprise in the late afternoon. Most people did not seem to sense the difference in the atmosphere when they stepped out of the train. Most people were only using their sense of sight to make sure they hurry home. What about the sense of touch? And the sense of smell? The sense of smell that allows u to differentiate the difference in the air temperature of the MRT and the air outside… Don’t lose that… most of us are blessed with all functioning 5 senses… Don’t take it for granted…

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7th March: Did I not mention what happened when I was out on Chinatown on Monday? Actually went to see a dermatologist for my skin problem, and then he told me to go get a referral letter from the polyclinic to see docs at National Skin Centre so that they can do tests on my hypersensitive back which will flare up into hives upon exposure to the UV light. Yeah man, those swimming-under-the-afternoon-sun-days are so OVER! Had this problem for the past 9 months?! Ever since I returned from Vietnam… Sigh… My beautiful back… :p And Mum’s incessant grumblings…

Anyway, not to sidetrack, I received a surprise phonecall from Sri Lanka! Now that I recalled, I actually did not blog much about my last few days in Sri Lanka, due to the fact that the tsunami that occurred seemed to shadow over everything that should be done instead. I made this friend on the way to the airport from Colombo on the day of departure. As I had to pay for 2 seats if I placed my backpack on another seat, I had it tucked in front of me. And…erm… as the bus was a mini-bus, it was really squeezy! The Sri Lankan beside me(he was sitting in a 2-seater while I was taking the 1-seater by the window) offered to let me place my huge backpack beside him as he had bought a printer and some other computer hardware and he was planning to pay for both seats.

I declined his offer. Did not want to take up his seat and make him uncomfortable should my bag took up to much space. But I had no choice later as the side of my bag was jutting out and they had to free up the aisle for passengers to sit. So, I let him place my bag on the seat beside him and thanked him profusely. Even offered to pay him half the amount, but he insisted that it was all right. AiYE!!!! So paiseh!

The bus did not stop at the airport but about 1km outside the airport. Thought my new-found friend was going to the airport, but he was actually going home! He had gone to Colombo to buy some computer stuff for his shop! I see! He was taking a tuk-tuk to go home and he offered to fetch me to the airport, all the while telling me that he has no ill intentions and that he’s married! Heh… I declined, insisting I could walk. Then he brought his wife and son to see me off at the airport later on. :) That was sweet! I actually had someone to send me off from Sri Lanka!

We exchanged phone numbers and emails. And tada… guess what? Yup, that phone call was from him. After 3 months… Amazing. Chatted for a while, the reception was good, but due to his heavy accent, I could not really make out what he said exactly… Got his phone number but not the email address. He said he would call again soon. :) Hope it does not cost him much.

8th March: Checked emails. Surprised to find 1 from a German that we knew from our trip and another from a Sri Lankan. The German guy, Hans, had been in contact with us since the tsunamis struck and we were concerned about the family we stayed at. Their homes were washed away. It seemed like they finally managed to resettle in and got internet connection a few days ago, at which point our guide, Karnal, emailed us. He did not leave us a very good impression, but it was his family that Eileen and I were concerned about. Great, they are safe and sound. I am utmost glad to hear that. However, Hans still did not have any news of the Swiss guy we knew.

9th March: I was penning down my thoughts in my diary and looking forward to watching ‘Amazing Race’ at 1030 when my neighbour knocked on my door and handed me a envelope parcel which was passed to her grandson earlier when I was out. I was surprised. Wondered who would send me a parcel and tried to make out the country it came from. “Postage paid�, “UK�, “01/03/05�, “Citipost�…. It was from UK! And the only person I can think of was MADDY! Oh, erm, that’s her nick and im so used to calling her that cuz that’s what she always signed off with. AHHHH!!!! Opened up and read the postcard with HUGE, BRILLIANT, SILLY smiles on my face. In fact, I was laughing away! What a PLEASANT SURPRISE!!!! I was totally thrilled! I was over the cloud! I was…. Alright, my vocab is limited, but u can imagine the happiness I was revelling in! :)

I had send her some photos of Vietnam when we were on this tour together. And she sent me fudge and toffee! And a postcard from London! :) Words cannot describe how I feel… *SIGH*

Monday surprise. Tuesday surprise. Wednesday surprise. Somehow, although I am staying in Singapore this 3 weeks break, although im not out there seeking the world, the world seems to be seeking me out… A call from Sri Lanka, emails from Sri Lanka and Germany, and a parcel from London! Boy…. I will step out of this cocoon in late April, my last chance to explore another part of the world before I become a part of the working world officially…

Tuesday, March 08, 2005

i)My run ii)Pulau Semakau iii)smoking & iv)casino

Went for a run just now. 1hour 6min. Great. Not too bad a run, except my legs were feeling quite stiff when I just started out, most probably due to the insufficient movement as I was sitting in front of the computer the whole day!

Wonder whether if it was a good day for run, or was it because I haven’t ran this route on a weekday before, as I ran past a total of 16 runners! 13 were met head on, meaning they were running in the opposite direction as me. Out of this 16 runners, 4 were female. 25%. Not a very encouraging number, but better than none, as I often don’t meet any female runners at all during my runs.

Met 5 cyclists as well, erm, they were cycling on the road while I was on the pavement. 1 female out of the 5 of them. Whoa. I usually run this route on Sundays but I have never met so many other sports enthusiasts out there before! J The feeling was good, considering we were all out there giving our bodies a little push and pumping it up for a better one!

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The headline news was on recognising Pulau Semakau as an area rich in biodiversity. Great news for that! I had just been to Sungei Buloh with a friend on Sunday and the migratory season seems to be over as I did not see as many different species of birds as I did in Nov last year. And I had my binoculars with me this time round! Sigh. Gotta wait till Sep when the feathered creatures fly into the country again! Read more about Pulau Semakau in the short extract from the news report below!

Semakau Island - Singapore's landfill - has been found to be rich in bio-diversity.

Mr Yatiman Yusof, Senior Parliamentary Secretary for Information, Communications and the Arts, and MP for Tampines GRC, said: "The rejuvenated natural habitat of Pulau Semakau with the mangrove mudflat and bakau trees provided attractive opportunities for the creative, and going beyond just a landfill, as Semakau-Seking is large enough area for recreation.

"I would like to suggest that the island be developed into an intensive recreational area. Facing an open sea, it could be developed into a sea sport centre for those who love to go yatching, boating, sea kayaking, wind surfing and even sports fishing."

And so by the second quarter of this year, groups like the Nature Society can start activities there and the National Enviroment Agency will put in the necessary amenities.

2nd headline news: On the ban of smoking in public places like bus shelters, interchanges, public toilets, swimming complexes and stadiums and community clubs from 1st Oct onwards, and hawker centres by year end! Another piece of GREAT news! YAHOO!!!! I always hate it when I smell cigarette smoke at the fitness corner where I do some workout cuz some idiot is sitting there on the bench puffing away. What the!?!? It’s a place for healthy people to get some exercises done and yet, we have to put up with the disgusting air which is polluted by these inconsiderate people who don’t give a damn about what they are doing to their bodies and pockets. (A pkt of cigarettes costs a lot!) they should extend this ban to parks and fitness corners around Singapore ASAP man. Many people would be in full support of this.

3rd headline news: Not a good one. If u guys have followed the news, u should know that there was a man who jumped to his death and there were 3 dead people found in his home. A friend was telling me that this is a social issue and that Singapore has many social problems and yet, a casino is pending on the government’s list. Wah. Déjà vu? Cuz the news report today announced that it was due to gambling that had forced the man over the ledge. Read more about it here.
I’m against the idea of the casino. As simply as that. No escape from social problems that will definitely arise. Maybe this is a sign that Singapore should not have one at all.

That's all from me. Look out for this space for some photos from me. Btw, did I mention that u went to Chinatown yesterday for a walk? Yeah, u guess it. Too much time. :p

I'M STAYING IN!

It’s already March. And it’s my holidays today... Stayed at home the whole day today... Will be going out for a run in a few minutes’ time after I finish my apple cut by Dad. For those friends out there who have been looking into my blog and went away disappointed over the past few weeks, I apologise sincerely. Been very lazy to write and not only online, but my personal diary as well. Much has gone on and friends have been updated via word of mouth.

The verdict was out last Friday. Im not going anywhere this March hols! Thou I have 3 whole weeks of hols! Argh… I was supposed to go somewhere faraway which had been planned since the beginner of this year. Disappointingly, it’s postponed and im not sure if I will be going to that place in May for I wanna go elsewhere for my grad trip.

This is my 2nd week of hols already and it was only on the 24th Feb when I received news from my friend that the trip’s postponed. It was the last 2nd day of school. I was in a panic as I did not know where to go and did not want to waste 3 weeks in Singapore. I had to choose a destination FAST.

On that night(Thurs), I decided on going to Beijing. But the next day, on Friday, as I swam and ran in school as training for my upcoming biathlon, I changed my mind. As I swam, I was hesitating about my choice of country as it’s still winter in Beijing and I’m worried my body would not be able to adjust back to the hot and humid equatorial Singapore when I’m back. As I exited the pool to change into my run gear and went for a run right after the swim, which was by the way my very 1st attempt at an actual biathlon ‘simulation exercise’, I knew I needed more training and decided to change my destination. It was tough getting my legs used to running straight after getting out of the pool and they felt like jelly for u have not utilized them much while swimming! And this event is something I really badly want to do well. I have never felt so much like doing something so passionately lately other than traveling. And thus, I’m willing to go on a shorter holiday for this.

Decided on Sarawak. Waited for a friend to decide. But by the time she gave me her answer, the cheap air tics departing from JB Senai Airport were all sold out and prices tripled! So I did not make the trip myself either. Some friends have chided me for not booking the tics earlier.

Well! Finally decided on going to Taman Negara for a short 5D4N trip. It was initially a 2-week trip, shortened to 10 days, then 1 week, and finally 5D4N. But my computer screwed up last week and I had difficulties accessing info on the train tics and other info online. ARGH. When I had to go into JB to buy my train tics last Fri, 4th March, I decided not to go in the end! For I realized I had wasted one entire week and have done nothing.

Somehow, I like to console myself by saying that things happen for a reason. Im not that disappointed in not being able to go anywhere actually because my heart was set on my planned trip all the while. And the rules of the Alchemist seems to rule here... When u want something with all your heart, the whole universe will conspire to make it come true... Perhaps my heart is set more on training well for my 1st biathlon than going anywhere... Perhaps that’s what is planned for me all along...

I’m going running! Till the next blog...