3rd day of work

Quite tired. Actually could doze off on the train while standing on the way back on Monday after reading a book! I lost my balance and stepped back 3 steps! Must have frightened the aunties around me. The entire way from Outram to Jurong before changing to CCK. Nah. There’s no seats at all. Have been standing for the past 3 days!

And I’ve not yet entered the full swing of work yet. Attended an orientation session yesterday afternoon after lunch and another ‘Infection Control’ lecture this morning. Tiring. All 6 of us (my classmates and I) were fighting not to fall asleep. Well, 3 of them did.

Did my 1st swim yesterday and 1st run today after work. The run today was not too bad, much better than I expected. The swim was really tiring though. Somehow, I felt a bit empty these 3 days. I do not feel like a full working adult as I’m tagged to a senior to learn all the protocols in the dept and I do feel very much like a student still. Neither here nor there. Trying my best to find myself right now and get into the swing. No more a student, no more radiographers to back u up if u should get into trouble. Have to keep reminding myself.

Need to talk to friends. The other 5 who are in SGH with me are not my close friends. Even if I can talk to them, the 2 other girls are in different departments from me and I hardly see them. I miss my gang in school. Sigh. Those days of gossip and crap. Those carefree days(more or less). I will be mentally unstable if I should go on keeping to myself like this. Need an outlet. I shall make it a point to meet friends this weekend.

Yet to get over Iran too. Needa talk. That’s the key thing there. I need to talk and share my feelings and thoughts and vent my frustrations, if any. Argh.

Tired, shall turn in and sleep. Sleep-deprived me.