Pre-departure thoughts

Another 3 hours before I depart for the airport. Dad is going to fetch me there. Hopefully I will be able to check in by 415am. Feelings now? Tired, a wee bit excited and a sense of unpreparedness. (is there such a word? U know what I am driving at.) Haven’t read up much on the history and culture of the country. And the places I wanna go: Hmph… It was only skimmed through a few weeks ago! Have to read up more during my 3hour transition in Bahrain. I hope I will be able to fall asleep throughout the flight to Bahrain. :p

It’s always a feeling of guilt before I travel. I’m spending money to go have fun(albeit it’s my sponsorship money) while my parents are toiling here in Singapore. I did want to bring them to KL last week, but my Mum, being the workaholic she is, refuses to go. However, I am really very glad that they have always let me go. They have really let loose their reins on me the very 1st time I decided I want to backpack. And more so this time, since they know that I’m going solo. Thank you, Daddy and Mummy. It’s just a very Chinese thing, I will never say this to them in their faces. Sigh. But the gratitude I have towards them is ever so deep, for they allow their only daughter to go venture and pursue her dreams despite what they have gone through. I love ya both! How I wish I can hold them and give them a tight hug each.

Cancerians are supposed to be homely and motherly. I used to think that I will never be that a couple of years ago. Well, I was wrong… the older I age, the more I realize there are just some things I cannot let go off. I did thought of developing superficial relationships with people around me, be it friends or my parents, so that it would be so much easier to let go when the time comes. “Letting go� in the sense of not only leaving to go overseas, be it for travel or work in future, but also the kind of permanent ‘leave’ when u will never see the person ever again. It would not hurt u as much, compared to if u have a very close relationship with the particular person, right?

Easier said than done. Hah. I’m such a sentimental person. A person without meaningful relationships in her life, what would that constitute? Man are born to be social creatures. I do like to be around people, but love the solitude as well. That’s why I can travel alone, I guess. After all, I have been doing so many things in Singapore solo already.

Inertia. I just needa break out of it and then I will possess the drive to travel. It’s just 2hr 45mins time! I’m gonna miss my bed!!!

I must give a special mention to several people down here who have helped me make my trip preparations more bearable. Thank you so very much, my dearies. So much for the last-minute stuff… :p Love u girls!

Lili: For lending me 3 of her long-sleeved tops! I’m bringing the purple one along! Cuz the other 2 are simply too hot. Thanks, girl!

Xueling: For meeting me a few hours ago to pass me yet another long-sleeved top. It will really help a lot! :) Take care and hope u’ll get a reply from the various companies soon!

Annie: Thank you so much for helping me handle the travel insurance thingy. :) I know me always so last minute, I’ll change for the better! Love ya! Have fun in India! Don’t stress!!!

All the other friends who have emailed and smsed me… I know who u all are. I really do not have the time to reply everyone, but your wishes are with me! For those who are going holidays, have fun and take care!

I’m going to catch a nap now. Rather tired. Till the next blog! I’ll be a few thousand miles away from home!

To travel is to live.
--Hans Christian Anderson