'KNOTS'

It seems like this week passes very slowly for me. At last, it’s finally Thursdays and my most major paper is over! Heaved a huge sigh. I still have 2 papers, a FYP presentation and a 2000-word report due next week. At least I can breath a little better now. The past few days were jam packed with exams, lessons, and a project presentation. ARGH.

Went for a run just now. Amazed with my energy level. Only slept for 5 hours last night mugging for the paper and stayed back in school to do FYP after the paper. It’s 1230am, now and im still wide awake. I need to turn in real soon as I still need to go to school tomorrow for my FYP discussion.

Felt rather tired during the run. Took a wee-bit longer than usual for the same route. It’s not exactly mental nor physical fatigue. I also don’t understand, but found it hard to run. Could not focus as well on my run as well, I ended up counting the umber of mango trees that I ran past! There is a whole row of them along the stretch of road leading from Jurong East all the way to Choa Chu Kang! But the mangos are all not ripe! Still green and are rather small. Counting mangoes was a mistake; it only make my run feel longer.

Suffered a little spasm in my right upper back region when I was running up a slope. The last time I suffered a spasm was during a run right after a swim. This muscle spasm actually had its history dated back to my Judo days when my back was overworked in a way and the muscles decided to protest by cringing up all together to inform me that I have overstressed them. Went to see the sports doctor several times over this and all the physiotherapist could do was to give me massages. But they were good. I miss them. It’s been a long time ever sicne I went for a back massage. I need one right now.

I was told to swim which would relax the muscles and also massage some ‘vital points’ in the muscles to relax them. More often than not, these ‘vital points’ are usually where the ‘knots’ exist. ‘Knots’ are actually tightened muscles that would go into spasm when u overwork them. The exact mechanism that sparks off this I do not know, most probably it’s due to oxygen shortage. And these knots are actually everywhere in your body. I can identify them for you just by massaging a part to see if there’s a ‘creaking’ sound and if it hurts or not! I have loads of them in every part of my body, as I discovered over all these years. Not that I’m an athlete, but as long as u do not observe the proper posture ever since u are born into this world, a ‘knot’ can occur in that particular part of your body due to sloughing as u place too much stress on one part of the body or perhaps repetitive stress motion like staying at the keyboard the whole day without moving about! They simply appear as u wear and tear your body with the passing of each day.

I was wondering how my entire body would feel so light and rejuvenated and fresh if only all these ‘knots’ would disappear. I would be running or swimming or doing anything else with a much relaxed body. And I’m sure performance would be much better.

Liken these ‘knots’ to the problems and troubles in Life. Life would be so much smoother if these ‘knots’ were removed, agree? It would proceed without any hindrance and we would not age that fast too. Hah. However, the moment we were born onto this world, we are born to accept the vices that ruled this world. Similar to ‘knots’, there’s no escape from them. We just got to live with them and find ways to make ourselves comfortable. There will always be a limit as to how much u can push them until the pain comes. Then u will be warned that u need a break. Otherwise, it will break u.

I do have a ‘knot’ in my Life right now. The stress from the last week in school and I do not even want to think about the prospects of strating work in June yet. I do know how to undo this ‘knot’: Travel. It frees my mind and I do not need to be concerned with matters back at home for a period of time. An escape of reality in a way, but an exposure to what I call the ‘bona fide reality’ out there. I need to breath.

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